After having been ill for seven weeks

Not due to heartache, but a virus.

That person. It may sound very cliché, but that person who used to make you so incredibly happy, but now he or she never fails to make you feel like complete shit whenever they talk to you. Whether it is an ex-bestfriend, or just an ex, I'm sure you've had one. You don't really want to talk to them, because you know all too well how terrible it's going to make you feel, but still, you long for the safety and happiness that person used to give you. The feeling of belonging and love they used to represent. But you're fooling yourself, because you're just going to feel unloved, useless and pathetic. It used to upset me endlessly. I used to want to cut contact with him, but I know he's still good for a nice chat, he can still cheer me right up. I used to, for some reason, think that my happiness depended on him. What a silly thought! Lately I've felt a lot better not talking to him.